Today's Horoscope

If you feel it, think it or care about it, it's going to be written all over your face -- so hiding your feelings is entirely out of the question. If you've got something to say to someone, resistance is futile.


Oh I got lots to say...

I am just not in a good mood these days, and I am not going to just keep on 'faking it'....

Work is going really good, but other aspects of my life could be better...

I am just not happy about anything at all-With the exception of Baby guy.



Sophie is away in South Africa. I am stuck going to Thanksgiving dinner and I really don't want to go at all. I want to stay in bed alone and sleep all day.
My truck needs an oil change and the brakes done. I am really strapped for cash so thats just not happening anytime soon.

I love this week each and every year...The week where absolutely no work gets done. A short week too.

So for Thanksgiving Hubby, Baby guy and I are going to his fathers' girlfriends house to have dinner. They are keeping Baby guy for the night. Hubby and I are going to go to his friends house afterwards, he always has get togethers on the nights of holidays b/c there's nowhere else really to go, everything's closed.
I am looking forward to it, however I have a feeling I will end up being the driver while my Hubby gets drunk.

I would like to think of it as a night out for me too, seeing how I NEVER LEAVE THE FUCKING HOUSE. I feel like I am trapped there. This past weekend I left the house for exactly 15 minutes. Whoop de fucking do.
How am I supposed to go to a gym? Where is my 'break'? Why am I always the one at home? Why is it that I am never asked, 'Hey is there something you want to do or go somewhere? Do you have errands you need to take care of?'

Conveniently, My Hubby always has something to do outside of the house...Hmmmm he's lucky isn't he?

News!

I have great news! My brother and sister in law are pregnant again!!!
How exciting! This makes, I think, the 6th person I know who's pregnant...

Don't drink the water, there's obviously something in it....

Weird random happenings going here...

So this morning was no different than any others. Up at the butt-crack of dawn with Baby guy. He had me up 3 times during the night. His schedule was all off. Yesterday we were at my Grandparents house so his morning and afternoon naps were *crap*. He went to sleep w/o his bottle, so of course he was up all during the night, making noises. He was up at 5:15 looking for his morning bottle so I gave it to him and went back to bed, He drank it and went back to sleep. When I dropped him off at daycare, I'm sure he was famished. Oh and finally all of his little teeth have come in! Whoo hooo!!!

So anyway, I get to work and check my personal emails, I have no time to check them at home, so yes, I use company time to do so. Tell me who doesn't??
So on my welcome page, Here is my Horoscope:

A voice from the past is due -- and you'll be downright tickled to hear it. Just don't let your delight interfere with that alarm going off in the back of your head. What didn't work once may not work twice.

And I log into MySpace and find a message from a Person of my past...We were pretty close friends. Our boyfriends were best friends. He was my first serious boyfriend, I adored him. Actually, when we first started dating, I attempted to end it, but he asked me to reconsider, so I did. I wish I had moved on... He ended up dumping me for a cheerleader, obviously it put a strain my friendship with this Person. He and I were back and forth between the cheerleader and another woman, a stripper. If I only had the self control and self esteem to just walk away, but I didn't, I was such a idiot, I gave up college to stay home with him. I know, stupid, right?
One night, something happened with this Person and my on-and-off boyfriend, and his best friend found them. This Person admitted to me what had happened the next day. She said they were drunk and didn't know what was happening until IT was happening.
So anyway, years later, actions based on lies and deceit and mis-understandings (which I think were founded on this one night that happened years prior) found me and this person, including an enemy-turned-friend, in a fist fight. I moved on with my life, and never heard from her again, until this morning. I was pissed off that I never got to discuss with her what had happened, I thought we were close enough to talk. I would have told her whatever it was that I knew, and I am sure we could have figured out the Liar in this situation, it wasn't me or her, but someone else. It's all a soap opera, highschool bullshit, but it bothered me that I couldn't say my part, I had no chance...
Fast forward to even more years later, My ex boyfriend and I were 'talking' again, we even saw each other a few times, he had moved away but like a dumbass I went up there. I had heard something that this Person's ex boyfriend said...He said he slept with me. Finally it all made sense! He walked in on this Person having sex with my on/off boyfriend, and when he had the chance to inflict the pain he felt, he took the opportunity to do so. Nothing but lies, deceit and mis-understandings... See what I mean, soap opera scenario's and highschool bullshit...I know I shouldn't care about it now, I actually really don't care now. At least I got my story out there, no one to tell it to on here, but whatever.

I wish none of that had happened, I wish I was in the right state of mind to just walk away and stay away from my ex. I know my parents wished the same...
I heard from him last year, he sent me a message through one of those reunion sites...He has a daughter and is probably married by now. Good for him, I hope his life is fulfilling and I wish nothing but the best for him.

Which brings me to this Person...She said 'I don't know about you, but I have grown up alot' I think we both have grown up alot, we have no choice, Life forces you to grow up. I'm just glad she saw me and sent a note...

gotta go for now
Mom

What a busy week this has been...

Let's see, where to start.
Baby guy's two top teeth already cut through :) Only 1 more on the bottom to come through and all will be quiet for a little bit. Thank god b/c I have been losing my mind. Everything's fine and then 'snap' he's throwing a fit, crying, digging his chubby little fingers in his mouth.

Daycare was telling me yesterday that he lets them feed him with a spoon or fork. But when I feed him dinner at home, he wants nothing to do with the utensils. He has a tantrum unless he shovels his food in his mouth by himself. He doesn't have finger food all the time, and I have to use a spoon for spaghetti-o's and messy stuff like that. As soon as his hands get all goopy and sloppy with food, the first think he does is rub it all in his hair. I used to do that. My mom has pictures of me with a redskins pom pom knitted hat on b/c I would rub my food into my hair and on some occasions, take the whole bowl and dump it on my head. That must be why my hair is so thick and gorgeous!;)
He also had picture day earlier this week. I sent him in his holiday outfit which was a tad too big, so in these pictures his sleeves and pants are rolled up. But he looked adorable, atleast when I dropped him off. And I gave them explicit instructions. No food, bottles or playing with anything until AFTER the pictures. Matter of fact, leave him in his crib until its time. No I'm not being mean, the pictures were at 7:30, I dropped him off at 7:00. And he didnt have to stay in those clothes all day, I brought a change of clothes for him to play in.
I want these to turn out really good, they will be sent out with our holiday cards this year.

Sophie was over for our usual Thursday night shows. Hubby has school that night. We love the OC and Reunion. After the baby goes to bed, we pop open a bottle of whatever and settle in to watch our shows and have cigarette breaks during commercials.

I started to work at the facility near my house yesterday, however its only 1 day a week. I wish I could be there full time, but for some reason, me and all of the other employees that want to be there, can't go, b/c we have to be babysat. Grown adults and we have to be watched. However there is one employee in our group that was allowed to work there full time... favoritism !!!
I love that building, theres a Starbuck's in there for chrissakes! And a huge cafeteria, you can get pizza, salad bar, grilled stuff, french fries, deli, chinese. And its cheap. I love it there.

Anyway, I have to get started working this morning.

ttfn
Mom

Long busy weekend

Back at work today, tired as usual.

I can't seem to get here on time! You would think that waking up at 5:45 am to get a kid to daycare by 7 wouldn't be so hard. I don't even feed him breakfast at home so that's not where my time is devoured. I am trying to see where I can shave off time but it's just not working.
I wake up, take a shower, make a bottle and give it to the baby. I don't even have to go downstairs to do that, I pre-measure the formula the night before, all I do is add water from the bathroom sink! I get dressed and do my hair, if I have to do it that day. I can go 2 days in between washings. I then get him changed and dressed, and then finish up with my makeup. I go downstairs and let the dog out and make his bottles for daycare. I load up the truck and my last step is picking up the baby from the crib and head straight to the truck outside.
Now where can I shave off some time and help myself get out of the house by 7?

Hmmm, I could get a little help in the morning, but let's be honest, who am I kidding here?

One day...One day...

Mom

Exhausted Again, as usual...Lots of stuff today...

Damn! I'm so tired, I was seriously contemplating pulling the truck over this morning on my way to work and sleeping! How sad is that?

Baby guy was sent home yesterday from daycare. We have had a rough past 2 weeks with his teething, but we have been getting by...

Needless to say I was surprised to get a phone call from the center asking me to come get him and that he had a fever of 101.7. He didn't seem 'sick' just a temp and he was very unhappy. I call his Dr. and talked to an advice nurse and said 'Look, I don't know what to do, Do I bring him in? I know he's teething, he's not showing any other signs of an illness.' They said to get him home and check him out for myself. I would know whether or not to bring him in.
And they added that sometimes, The Daycare's temperature reading can be a tad high. Meaning, they elevate the temp by a notch or two to get the kid out of the center and out of their hair. I know he was giving them a run for their money yesterday! When I got to the daycare, they tell me his temp was 102, now WTF? So I get him home and cuddle him and love on him. I took his temp with a thermometer pacifier and it read 99.1... HMMM that’s not 101.7 or 102 for that matter.... But I will let it go for now. When I got him home, he was laughing and giggling and all over the place. HUMPF 102 my ass.

Sophie (our Nanny :)) played with him so I could work for a few more hours while watching her 'stories'

He went to sleep for the night without any fuss and slept for 5 hours until around midnight. He just did not want to sleep alone. I was up 3 times with him. Rocking him till we were both asleep and I would put him in his crib. But when he realized where he was and that I was not around, oh man, was he pissed! So I ended up bringing him to bed with me and Hubby slept on the couch. Baby guy slept the rest of the night next to me.

If I could, I would cuddle next to him every night. But that’s a bad habit to get into and I would never get him out of our bed and into his own. We know a couple who are going through that with their toddler; He has never slept in his crib, only with mom and dad.

So on Saturday I am scheduled to have my fitting/sizing, whatever you want to call it, for my Matron of Honor dress for Cole's wedding, she's one of my bestest (Is that even a word?) friends. She chose periwinkle as the color, and it looks really nice. However on the fabric we chose for the dresses, it looks a tad on the lilac/purple-ish side. Hey I'm not complaining. You know I absolutely adore purple anyway. Her wedding dress is gorgeous. Words cannot describe how this dress looks. It was quick and painless when we went to pick out a dress for her.

I am planning her Bridal Shower and already have the details down pat. I have the party favors already! Now how is that for preparedness? I tell you I am too good!
I wanted to have it at a restaurant in a wing off to the side with an appetizer type finger food buffet and informal-sit-anywhere type of environment. I figured why not let someone else clean up the mess? However, a Bridesmaid nixed my idea and I should have told her to 'stick it' but Cole asked me to accept help if they offer it. So anyway this Bridesmaid offered up her mother’s house to have the shower. I should have said 'no thanks' But again, Cole said, "She's trying to help"
Anyway, I have a sneaking suspicion that the shower will not be held there, I just have that feeling and I should be looking into the cost of going ahead as I had planned originally, In other words, 'Thanks but no thanks on your Mom's house' This is my show, You do what you want when YOUR a Matron/Maid of Honor. I get one shot at this for Cole and I don't want it be ruined in anyway what-so-ever. HA! Take that! Besides, this Bridesmaid already had issue with the date I chose for the shower, it was the day after her birthday and she would be hung-over and would Cole get me to change the date pleeeease? Get Bent Ma'am. Cole let her have it, and the Bridesmaid backed down. Cole even told me to watch this Bridesmaid and that she would try to steal my show since it was being held at her mother's house. Like 'It's my house, I say what goes', type of elementary school shit.

Yeah, now that I think about it, I want this to be easy as possible for everyone, including me. I should start calling around getting quotes...

Well that's all for today. I have some work to get started on and some escalations to handle...

Bye for now
Mom

Halloween pictures

Oh We had such a good time, and Baby guy just loved his first Halloween...